Ramblings of a Red Fox
As I meet more furs, I am finding out that furry means something
different to everyone, but I am also finding alot of furs who
are alot like me.
For many years, I have felt alone, thinking there was
no one else who felt the way I do. For over 18 years I have
_seriously_ wanted to _be_ a red fox. The desire became very
strong after seeing Disney's "the Fox and the Hound" on July
11, 1981 and reinforced even more when Disney released "Robin
Hood" about 10 months later.
Ever since then it has been the very foundation of
who and what I am. Though, I felt I couldn't share these feelings
with anyone for fear of them thinking I was strange or crazy.
So I buried my feelings deep down, not saying hardly a thing about
my love of foxes and deep desire to be one, Although, I thought
about it all the time. Practically every night I would lay in
bed before I went to sleep and think about becoming a fox,
finding a beautiful vixen to be my mate, hoping-wishing I would
wake up the next morning covered in soft fur and having a big
bushy tail, muzzle, ears......Though, it hasn't happened (yet)
so I kept pushing along with my life the way that it is.
I feel that it must be that I am a red fox spiritually.
Just stuck in this human body. Over the years, the more I have
learned about foxes, the more I have felt that its what I really
am, and the more my desire to be one.
In the spring of 1988, Disney re-released The Fox and the Hound.
I was so excited to be able to see it again as it had been 7
years since the original release. Afterwards, I became very
depressed because I still wasn't physically a red fox.
I was so depressed, I couldn't eat hardly at all for about a
month. Somhow I managed to pull myself out of that slump, I
guess by trying to focus my attention on other things such
as the old radios I like to collect. Thinking back, 1988 was
the year I bought the most radios. anyhow I was able to get
myself back on my feet and keep my hopes and dreams of becoming
a fox very much alive.
it was 1996 when I bought myself a computer and got onto the
Internet and it was late January of 1997 that I found a
Furry website. As I went from one furry website to another I
was thinking "WOW! Is this what I think it is?!?!" I was in
total amazement. "Could there be others like me?!?!"
The more that I surfed around the websites, the more I realized
YES! there are others like me!!
I am so happy that I have found all of you. I don't think I
could ever go back to the way I was..totally alone.
It's like part of my dream has come true. I am being accepted
as a red fox by other furs....I really am a fox!!
I hope someday our dreams will come true and become fully what
we are inside. Until then I will keep striving to be closer
to the red fox, and try to be as foxlike as I possibly can.
Hopefully with the help of other furs, I can accomplish this goal.
:)
AeroFox
webpage: http://www.bright.net/~geary/aerofox